(the following is a deep,dark rant,and if you can't handle unfortunate realities I encourage you to stop reading now.I think most PWD feel like this,at some point.)
Sometimes being the only person with diabetes sucks.
Sometimes I don't bolus for that piece of Triple Decker Death-By-Chocolate caramelized goodness.(on purpose,and I shortly rue the day..not a good idea even you are tired of diabetes)
Sometimes I forget my meter,forget lancing device,forget
strips,forget glucose,forget back up insulin,forget pump supplies,or forget money. And sometimes I forget all of those.
Sometimes I want to give up.(dark thoughts,don't go down that road)
Sometimes a blog comment really makes my day!(ok,most blog comments really make my day)
Sometimes I want to hit the Diabetes Police very,very hard.
Sometimes I can throw 100 carbs at a low & not break 120,other times I can eat 15 & voila, I'm 220.
Sometimes I wonder if a middle of the night low will be how I go.
Sometimes I wonder if there will ever be a cure.
Sometimes spontaneous combustion of tears is the sole symptom of a low blood sugar.(classy,not)
Sometimes I wonder if any of my classmates will be caring for me(in a nursing home) in 30+ years.
Sometimes the combination of Diet Coke & Spearmint gum tastes like rotten socks.
Sometimes having diabetes isn't as bad,when everyone else out there "gets it" too.
Sometimes I wonder why I'm so lucky,despite it all,when others haven't been.
Sometimes I think I'd like to beat the insurance company executives over the head & make them see that supply restrictions is not the way to contain costs,they'll simply pay for the complications later.
Sometimes I'll spot a fellow pumper in the wild.
Sometimes I'll eat twice as much of whatever I'm told not to eat,just to spite whoever said I couldn't.
Sometimes I wake up and have no idea how many carbs were actually consumed during that 3 AM low.
Sometimes I will eat sugar-free candy,and not gag.(if the situation is non-resolvable)
Sometimes I wish I had a personal Endo 24/7 who would take care of the diabetes crap while I just lived my life.
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I relate to all of these, especially - Sometimes I'll eat twice as much of whatever I'm told not to eat,just to spite whoever said I couldn't.
ReplyDeleteIt sucks - life goes on....and on...
This rings true on every point. Thank you for having the courage to write and post this. I wish I could hug you in person. Here is an internet hug (((((HUG))))).
ReplyDeleteThis is a brilliant post - almost got me in tears. I just came on to blog about something similar. I just wish sometimes people got a glimpse of how relentless living with type 1 is.
ReplyDeleteI agree on everything. I especially eat the twice as much as I am told not to eat post. Just to spite said idiot. This is like the song that never ends it just goes on and on my friends....
ReplyDelete"Sometimes I can throw 100 carbs at a low & not break 120,other times I can eat 15 & voila, I'm 220."
ReplyDeleteSigh... Yep.
Hey Heidi
ReplyDeleteI think you pretty much covered it....although I might add one of my own.
Sometimes....I just want to tell you that you are awesome and inspiring!
YES YES YES YES.
ReplyDeleteholy crap. I don't care if you think this post was down and dark, I found it the best part of my day.